Nothing to do but wait

It’s been awhile, sorry about that. But as I’ve told a few people — it’s hard to type “shrug.” There just hasn’t been anything to report for the last 35 days.

(and after making that joke for a couple of days, I remembered ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ is a thing. Oops.)

But I digress. After the last post we waited for a few days and then got the papers filled out, signed and immunizations re-immunized (the list on the official documentation differed from my notes, and I foolishly ignored that). We sent those records off and waited…and waited…and then we got a call asking where they were and then we waited another couple of days and then got a call asking why we hadn’t gotten all the immunizations they’d asked for (and an apology when I pointed out the goof, although I should’ve called and verified the list). So we got the shot and got a vial of blood drawn and in the mail, and then a week and change later, we got the call saying he was on the list. (The horrible sentence structure there isn’t really a tribute to Faulkner, nor is it bad writing trying to disguise itself as one. It’s more a way to show how aimless the month felt).

While just treading water, waiting for the first shoe to drop (so we can start waiting for the other one), things have been happening on related fronts. We’ve had some fruitful and helpful conversations with great people at our insurance company and our pharmacy and have seen our pediatrician more than we have in years — things like that. Also, we’ve had one person try to arrange a paired exchange for us — had to put a stop to that, with a good measure of regret — but there are some jobs we need to leave to the professionals. We had another family try to arrange a donation of a recently deceased person — again, we had to leave that to the professionals (although we strongly encouraged them to just try to donate to anyone). Both of these offers of help left us full of gratitude (the latter also left us speechless and in awe).

Similarly overwhelming has been the response to a GoFundMe campaign Machen’s mom started to help us pay for the housing expenses during our post-surgery stay. Friends, family, our church family, another church, and strangers have contributed more than we could’ve hoped for. Still, feel free to click the link, share the link, etc. The lack of housing help from our insurance was a heckuva blow (our case manager sounded like it bothered her more than me when she broke the news, “This is usually the part of the call I like because I can tell you all the wonderful things we’ll do . . .”) — the fact that this is a specific contract exemption felt like it’s a personal smack from the employer who covers us. I know it’s not, and really have nothing else to complain about on the insurance front — but at the time the news was delivered, it felt like it.

It’s now down to waiting for That Call. Which, by the way, means that if I (or my wife or his siblings) get a call that we interrupt a conversation with you over — it may not mean that we’re being rude, it’s just that That Call is something we’ve been waiting over a decade for. Odds are that we are being rude — but one of these times, we won’t be.

July and August-September is coming fast

July, I am supposed to have an appointment with my new Nephrologist, Dr. Bender. Now if any of you that is reading this and love Futurama, it’s not Bender the robot, sadly. Then I should go to Portland for test and classes, 2 days later.

August-September, what is so far planned, the kidney transplant is supposed to be around when I start school (at the earliest) and during September. It is going to take about 5 weeks to my understanding.

Worth Waiting For

The efficacy of baptism is not tied to that moment of time wherein it is administered; yet, notwithstanding, by the right use of this ordinance, the grace promised is not only offered, but really exhibited, and conferred, by the Holy Ghost, to such (whether of age or infants) as that grace belongeth unto, according to the counsel of God’s own will, in his appointed time.

On June 6, 2004, Rev. David A. Bass applied the waters of baptism to our son Machen (he’d be the one in red there).  The grace offered and exhibited to him then was conferred to him recently.  This morning, he made his public profession of faith and was made a member of the fellowship the rest of us joined last year.

Again, seeing this was a privilege I don’t deserve.  Helping him to this stage has been a blessing (though, honestly, not one I always remember to see as such).  He took a big step in improving his baptism this morning, but he has many others before him, Lord willing.  Hopefully, his mother and I can continue to help him in this lifelong effort, but our hope and trust is that he who began a good work in Machen will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.

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This is just me talking about my convictions.  This is not a reflection of the beliefs of the Fellowship to which I currently belong.  In the incredibly unlikely event that any other member of this Fellowship is reading this, do know that I am not seeking to foment any type of rebellion against the statement of faith there.  If God, in His mercy, grants a change in the Fellowship’s position on the sacrament, I will welcome it, but I will not have had a hand in it beyond my prayers that He would sanctify the body by His truth.  

Just had to Share this One

This is one of those, I have to write down so I’ll remember it in the years to come.

Machen and his sister went camping and fishing with my parents this last weekend–because of the rain, “camping” is loosely defined as sleeping in sleeping bags on the living room floor. Which explains all the grass underneath Machen’s feet in this picture.

Of course, since they were camping, they had a cookout or two, and roasted marshmallows. Towards the end of the roasting, Machen declares that he’s making one for his dad, which probably elicited it’s share of chuckles, and they tried to move on. But he’s got this way about him that makes his parents do things they normally wouldn’t do–making Grammy very susceptible to his whims. So, she wraps it in a piece of wax paper and plastic wrap.

And he kept it.

Sunday when he came home, I was given this clump of plastic wrap around something. I could tell he thought he was being thoughtful and generous when he presented it to me, so I thanked him and hoped he’d explain.

No such luck–apparently the nature of the clump should’ve been obvious, so I thanked him, and he glowed. Thankfully, Grammy was still around to explain what I’d been given.

How thoughtful is that, really? Only time anyone’s ever bothered to make me a roasted marshmallow and then keep it for a day.

Incidentally, it tasted great, still had some of that fresh off the stick smokey taste to it, too. 🙂

Update

Had our regular checkup with the kidney doc today. Everything was in the good to excellent range on the blood test front. Kidney function was at 35-40%, but the doc’s not worried–hydration level alone is worth a few percentage points. The doc took a minute or two with the other kids to drill them on anatomy, and teach ’em a little bit (that was fun). And I learned the phrase “the third kidney.” Educational for all involved.

Overall, very pleased.

The big news is, he started reading this week. Yeah, if he was less stubborn, he’d have done it in February. Yeah, he’s older than his siblings were when they started. But, really, who cares? The kid’s on the verge of literacy.

Couldn’t be prouder.

…oh yeah, and this weekend, he started whistling. He’s pretty good at it, definitely better than any of his siblings (either at this age, or currently). And he knows he’s good, so he does it a lot.

Absolutely irritating.

Update 12/3/08

Visit to the nephrologist was a short one, and on the whole positive. Doc was satisfied with his grown–1.5 inches since July and 2 pounds (2 pounds?!?!)–actually, he called that “good.” Most of the things we look for in his blood were good. The big one, sadly, went up a bit; his creatinine was at 1.2 giving him a 44% kidney function (+/- 4%), so he’s “slipping a little” on that front. We’re still more than 20% from the point where we start shopping around for his next kidney.

We’ve also scheduled the next of those all day appointments for early January, so, there should be more info sooner than normal.

Incidentally, that pic was taken a week and a half ago while we were waiting for the lab to draw his blood. The smile was a little bigger initially, but he had to hold it longer than expected cuz I hit the wrong button on my phone. He was literally bouncing up and down in the waiting room.

Machen Update

March 5, 2004 March 5, 2008

Been a wild 4 years since those first few days of his life…but nowhere near as wild as we expected, thankfully.

Had another checkup last week–on the 4th anniversary of his initial diagnosis. Not exactly the greatest anniversary to note, but hey…you make the best of what you do. As the pictures above indicate, things are going much better now than they were then.

Kidney function tested as 41% (really anywhere between 30-45%, but the most recent blood work showed 41). For those keeping score at home, “10% is Transplantville…20% is when we start planning.” Or so says our doc…homey little metaphor, isn’t it? Worthy of Dan Rather. Oh, for those who’ve asked–we’re still waiting on results from that all day test.

The visit was educational…learned about the hormonal component to toilet training. Don’t know why I’m so surprised there is one, there’s a hormonal component to everything nowadays*. A fringe problem with the kidney issue is that that hormone doesn’t usually kick-in on time with kids like him. Which does explain a thing or two. Now I don’t just bring this up so I have something written with which I can embarrass him…it’s just that there’s all these things that come along with his condition. You think about chronic renal failure and you think about transplants, dialysis, growth problems and all that. You don’t think about problems with toilet training, or having to go through physical therapy, or potential delays in intellectual development (very thankfully, nothing we’ve really noticed). Every now and then, can’t help but wonder about what unexpected problem is next.

On the less nephrological side, things are going very well. He’s the life of the party–even when we’re not having one, maybe particularly when we’re not having one. His speech development could use some work–he gives soft-spoken a whole new meaning. He has this toy computer that he plays with all the time–he’s teaching himself a lot of spelling, letter and word recognition, etc. He’s chomping at the bit to grow up–even while we all try to keep him from doing so. His parents, my folks, his siblings, my sister, my niece–we’re all trying to keep him as a toddler, we’re not letting go. But man, oh man…he so wants to grow up; to play baseball, to do schoolwork, to be like his brothers. And he’s not letting us win.

Blast it all.

* yeah, yeah, I know there’s always been hormonal components to things, we just know about them now…

This has the makings of an interesting day

So Machen has a big day today. He’s going to be part of a nationwide study on pediatric kidney problems. His involvement will take part over the course of four years, starting in abouuuut four hours.

Today’s festivities kick off with him getting an IV put in his hand–they were supposed to give us a prescription for some Valium to help him deal with that, but that didn’t happen. He’s had about as many needles stuck into him at this point in his life as I have, and generally does okay, so it shouldn’t be too bad–but I’d feel better if he was relaxed. Anyway, that IV will be used to get 4 or 5 blood samples over the course of the day. He’ll also have a decent physical, his regular nephrology checkup, and some other things. Once all the results are in, we’ll have a much better idea of how he’s going than we’ve had since…well, ever.

In a couple of months there’ll be some psychological tests (that should be fun), and an annual repeat of today, along with other assorted fun times along with way.

But that’s then. Before us today is trying to come up with ways to fill the time between blood draws and exams w/o my wife, myself or Machen doing violence against each other. Thankfully, his siblings are spending the day with some friends, or I know there’d be bloodshed. 🙂

Three Years Down…

Wow…three years already. Machen, my boy, Calvin and Owen have taught me just about everything I know about being a dad (Owen by being first, Calvin by being totally different than Owen), but you’ve taught me a lot more about life than just about anything and anyone else. I learned what fear can really feel and taste like when you went back to the hospital on Day 3–I learned how to hold on by faith to our Shepherd’s rod and staff from that, too. And in the aftermath, I learned how tenuous our grip on life really is–and how precious life can be. Now, as a result of that, I’ve treated you with kid-gloves, and let you get away with things that your siblings never would’ve. You and I will pay the price for that in years to come, but I’m not going to change my approach. (I have, however, started saving for your therapists)

But ’til then, you are the gentlest, the sweetest person I’ve ever met. I am a better person because of your presence in my life. God has truly blessed me through you, and I pray those blessings keep coming for many, many years. I love you, little buddy. Happy birthday.

He was being insufferably cute last weekend, so some bonus pics:

really not sure how this got to be his “super happy smile,” but am learning that when I get this I’ve done very good 🙂